Such a Great Cloud
Friday, May 11, 2012 at 11:39AM
There is a cloud hanging over all of us. No! It’s not Marx’s specter of communism; do not mistake it for that. It is a ghost-filled misty mass casting its colossal shadow over every move we make. I only began to feel its damp effects recently, but since then, the cloud has been growing.
My discovery began on a partly cloudy (I am referring to real clouds now) day in Oxford, England. I was on a double-decker public bus, headed away from the city-center in search of C.S. Lewis’s church and grave. My habit of flying-by-the-seat-of-my-pants had led me there with no tour guide, no map and no idea of their whereabouts except that they were, “That way,” as directed by a bookseller. I followed my heart, and exited the bus at a stop next to a locally owned flower shop in what I figured was the general vicinity of the church.
“How fortuitous!” I thought. Well, it may have been something more vulgar, but I like to think of my past-self speaking a semi-Victorian English. Anyway, “How fortuitous!” I thought, “I can purchase a flower to place on or next to the grave.” I entered the shop and bought a Gerber Daisy for a few odd pence in my pocket from a kind woman working there. She happened to know the location of the church, and provided me a map, and a penciled path on that map to the church. A narrow, winding walkway through suburb neighborhoods, under lush hedge-arches and along quaint stonewalls brought me to the church and its graveyard. It was a humble, stone Anglican building with a walled cemetery and a few leafy trees on the grounds. At the gate, I met an aged gardener, sitting on a stone eating a sack lunch with his calloused hands. We were the only two around, and after approaching him, I said, “Is it okay if I . . . ? ” and pointed to the cemetery beyond the gate.
“Sure,” he said indifferently, and I entered. There was no wind; I was completely alone, and everything growing in that graveyard was green. I walked from headstone to headstone, my little daisy in hand, looking for ‘the one’ and not caring how quickly I found it. At last, there it was! A simple slab with an empty flower holder at its base. I put my flower in it, stepped back and took a picture with my iPhone (see picture above). Immediately I felt like I had committed some terrible sacrilege or at least an embarrassing faux pas, so I put my phone away and blushed a little. When the shame had passed, I just stood there feeling overwhelmed. I prayed and thanked the LORD for His Spirit’s work in this man’s life; the allergens in the air may have forced a tear or two out of my eyes. I did not know then what was overwhelming me. I think I know now. The answer can be found in two passages—one from C.S. Lewis himself and the other from Holy Scripture:
“You must not think that I am putting forward any heathen fancy of being absorbed into Nature [at death]. Nature is mortal. We shall outlive her. When all the suns and nebulae have passed away, each one of you will still be alive” (From The Weight of Glory).
“Since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles” (Hebrews 12:1, NIV).
The cloud! That ever-growing cloud of witnesses was swelling over me and I was feeling its cool mists. The moment in that silent cemetery awakened me to one idea: C.S. Lewis is not dead. He has joined that ‘great cloud of witnesses.’ I did not have a false sentimental picture of him looking down from heaven smiling on me. No, I was thankful for God’s work in him, and felt the weight of that work—the weight of glory.
From that day to this, the cloud has been growing, or rather my awareness of it has been growing. Every book I read, from McCullough’s John Adams to Metaxas' Bonheoffer; From Beacher Stowe to Boreham; from Augustine to Ambrose; from Dickens to Dostoyevsky the cloud has been building to cumulonimbus proportions. God’s work in those men and women has continually reminded me of the fleeting nature of nature and the unwavering power of our creator, even in his flawed children.
I left my flower there and made my way back to the bus stop, feeling thankful for that moment in the graveyard when I was surrounded not by the dead but the living. The weight of glory has been hard upon me ever since, as it should be upon all of us,
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith” (Hebrews 12:1-2, NIV).
R.Eric Tippin
May 11, 2012
Tippin Dental Group


